am i still alive?!

will this ever come to an end! i do not think so! man i worse everyday perhaps! well i think so! i might try depression all over again! no i will not! but i know what is fun thAT will not stop me making up songs of why blonde girls suck and also why a certain blonde should die and that she will not ruin my life dating the that i liked! wah! in the plus side is so hard for me to forget too! i have the tension of writing a poem about emonessiting of why she should die!man i could think of so many reasons of why a blonde girl should however die!sumilar blonde girl names are amy , rebecca and ashley!! !!!! and many more that i do not want to mention! is like once i was watching mon on muchmusic and one text on the screen said "I LOVE YOU ASHLEY!" it made me vry thinking that he maybe text that in! it really hurts to heart something like that even on a big screen tv! even before i thought he would never change ! but now i think he is not himself at all! you know who is the idiot the person who dating the certain blonde and the guy! but for real do i think he is an idiot ! not even a bit! the truth i still like him alot! but for some reason i have to forget him form deepest part of my heart!!!